People With Disabilities in Malaysia

19 May 2006

Millionaire

It has been a while not updating my blog. Many reasons caused I stopped writing and posting my feeling to this blog. Busy is not the good reason, I guess. Lazy may be one of the reasons. Of course, my frustration is another reason.

I was a girl who dreamed about romance and love. I wished to feel the kissing and hugging. Things changed, perhaps. Now, I dream about how to be millionaire. Recently, I joined a contest, a millionaire contest! How great if I win. Anyhow, I still prefer make money with my own hands. I don’t be poor, I hate to be poor.

22 February 2006

I have no doubt


Family is always important than boyfriend, I have no doubt about that. I just don’t want to see and leave my love one suffers without my support.

Lucky one goes first


Sometimes I really wish I could give up current relationship. Not because we have no more love, it is because we are still in love so much.
I could see how much he suffers. My heart sore is getting serious. He tells me that he wants to give up everything.

About 14 months ago, I could feel how happy he was. He used to thank God that we met. He was so proud to friends and relatives that I am a person with disabilities who is doing my Degree Computer Systems Engineering.

I used to think what if my parents leave one day. Would I still carry on my life? Or I would follow them? Mum told me once before “Lucky one goes first.” I also agree with her. And I’d love to go first.

Besides my parents, Kent is the person who I love the most. He loves and protects me, just like my parents. He could scarify everything for me and he never says “NO” to me. I was so happy to meet him. I thought I’d got another person who loves me like my parents do.

Unfortunately, my parents always think that Kent is more important to me. Could I tell my parents that I don’t want to lose anyone of them because I can’t afford to lose them? Could I tell them that Kent is important because I am afraid to lose them in future? I would give up Kent if we don’t love each other anymore or we have problems which are unsolvable.

Yes, I believe that I would survive without a life partner. I don’t mind to be single for rest of my life. Losing Kent and don’t have a life partner are different.

Things are getting worse. My heart sore is getting serious. I pray and ask God to help us to go through this obstacle.

I guess this post may be quite complicated to my blog readers. However, this is what I feel.

24 January 2006

Please spend your 5 minutes


My dear Kent is facing an obstacle. May God bless him. Please spend 5 minutes to pray for Kent if you stop by my blog. Thank you a lot and God bless you.

07 January 2006

Disabled, ignored and exploited


This is the highlight for The Star (Malaysian newspapers).


WHEN our local taxi drivers see a disabled person trying to flag them down, more often than not, they turn a blind eye.

“If you are a disabled person, chances are you will go unnoticed in Kuala Lumpur”, is what the disabled have been telling the media and friends.

We put this to the test to gauge whether cabbies are sensitive to the needs of the disabled.

I went undercover in a wheelchair around the city for four hours. And I found out ... Yes! Taxi drivers pretend that a disabled person in a wheelchair does not exist. They look the other way.

Only one in 12 taxis that I tried to flag down stopped for someone in a wheelchair. The others just drove by.

All in all, I tried to flag down almost 60 taxis. Only five taxi drivers stopped to ask where I wanted to go.

Of the five, two tried to swindle me.

“If I take you to Kajang, I will have to return empty. So I have to charge you both ways. One way is RM30, so the fare is RM60,” said one.

Another cabbie at the Bintang Walk, stopped and ogled at a foreign tourist and boasted that he had made love to almost all nationalities who were his passengers in the past 12 years.

He went on for 10 minutes and then parted with a word of caution: “Tell all your friends not to let their daughters marry a taxi driver.”

My undercover work started at 10am when The Star van dropped me off at the Hilton Hotel car park, and I tried to wheel myself across to the taxi stand at KL Sentral.

A policeman who saw me struggling rushed over and helped me across the road dividers.

There were about 10 taxis waiting in single file for passengers. I tried to hail them but they ignored me.

Of the 23 taxis I tried to stop at KL Sentral, only two stopped to ask where I wanted to go.

Ahmad Yahaya, 43, said he was willing to take me to Kajang.

“If you wait here, I will go and get you a coupon and I can take you to Kajang.”

“Can my wheelchair fit in your taxi?” I asked him, and he said, “No problem. I have taken wheelchair-bound passengers before.

“It is my duty to take anyone who wants to go in a taxi. Thank you for stopping me and asking me to give you a ride,” he said.

Ahmad was a helpful taxi driver and I could see his enthusiasm in wanting to help a disabled person.

In contrast, the majority of taxi drivers ignored the disabled. Many of them pretended to talk on the mobile phone, covered their face behind a newspaper or just ignored me and drove away.

My next stop was the Kota Raya bus stand.

Just like the taxi drivers at KL Sentral, the cabbies here did not look at me.

However, one taxi driver responded.

As he walked towards me, he asked me: “Where do you want to go?”

I said: “Rawang”.

“Okay! But it will cost you double.”

I asked him why and his reply was the same as the earlier taxi driver.

After lunch, I sat patiently by the main road next to the Salak South post office and of the nine taxis I tried to stop, only one did.

The driver, Wong Kam Sang, 67, was prepared to take me. But because I was supposedly heading to Rawang, he apologised for not being able to do so as he had a prior appointment in 20 minutes.

I told him I understood and appreciated the fact that he cared enough to stop.

The rain came soon after and it was time to call it a day.

Despite the bleak conclusion about how heartless the city is with regard to the transport needs of the disabled, I saw a ray of hope in people like Wong and Ahmad.

29 December 2005

Welcome you, 2006 - My Dreams


Christmas is over! I’ve got no any present and no turkey to taste. Anyhow, I still enjoyed this Christmas. Thanks God my beloved ones are healthy, safe and they are with me all the time even they are busy. I am also happy that I am going to complete my studies even I took longer time.

2005 is going to end, and 2006 is going to begin. Of course, I’ve got my new wishes and targets for next year.

First, I always pray for my dad, mother, sister and Kent would be safe, healthy and happy. Although my parents and Kent are being protective all the time, I know all they do is for my own good.

Secondly, I really wish that I could let something down. It has been on my mind all these years and hurting me deeply. Thus, I really wish for a peaceful heart.

Finally, freedom! I wish my parents and Kent would trust and believe that I am mature enough to go through every obstacle and difficulty. Get a job and meet new people are my wishes for next year. House is not always the safest place and strangers are not always the dangerous!

14 December 2005

My life has no meaning


“My life has no meaning” is what people say when they’ve got obstacles. As for me, I’d say “My life has no meaning” when I’ve got no obstacles and difficulties in my life.

This is the final semester for me to complete B.Sc in Computer Systems Engineering. I feel a bit nervous to go to the “Real World”. Anyhow, I’d try to get for a job and go for it. My love ones hope I could get a job which I could work from home. I understand they don’t want anything happens to me when I work outside. They are worried about I couldn’t get well with my co-workers and also the accessibilities such as toilet and steps in the work place.

I really need the courage from the person I love the most, that’s my mother. I am sure that she understands what I need in my life. On the other hand she is also worried about me getting hurt in my work place and I’d get hurt by guys. Of course, I’d cry if guys who I love hurt me and I’d get sad if I couldn’t get a good job and co-workers. “Don’t worry about too much, mummy” is what I always tell her. People learn from failure and success came after failure, I always believe that. I am ready to challenge and go through to every obstacle and difficulty.

My next post will be “My Dreams”…

08 December 2005

Never Give Up!

















There are people who always think their conditions/situations are the worst or what they are facing now is unsolvable! Some people think of committing suicide for the reason “Broke up with boyfriend”. A very straightforward conclusion, “I look down on these people”.

There are the kind of situation; solvable and unsolvable. Okay, I take above statement as the example. I believe a couple who are mature enough would never think of breaking off or separate before trying to face a problem or an obstacle. They would face and solve every problem or obstacle together when they know the problem is solvable.

How about unsolvable? Couples break up for reasons, the reasons may be from a party or both. They may find there are many problems can’t be solved. Thus, they take an alternative solution, break off. Don't consider breaking off is a bad thing, it may be a solution.

For immature people, they can’t accept the fact of breaking off, they think negative and struggle. They even hurt themselves such as commit suicide. It is not a solution but it also creates more problems.

Nothing can be important than our life and also our future. Solutions are always with us. We must have our belief always. There many are cancer patients who fight for the bright days and people with disabilities who fight for the freedom and independence day.

As long as we are healthy and we are still alive, we could still try whatever we want. Never give up our life!